The moment I decided to change my life was back in 2015.  I realized I wasn’t the only one who felt like an ‘imposter’ with confidence crippling insecurities as I sat in the massive auditorium of the Emmanuel Centre in Victoria, London. I was at a lecture in London hosted by The School of Life with the famous author of The Chimp Paradox, Dr Steve Peters.

Dr Peters gave an incredibly inspiring keynote speech about peak performance. He was very open (and a bit un-PC) about women, men and their ability to succeed.  I loved his down to earth style. Basically he confirmed what many of us had talked about since the famous Sheryl Sandberg book and TedTalk “Lean In”.   Whether you’re a Lean In fan or not, there does seem to be a common theme when it comes to women holding themselves back.

Essentially, we all kind of knew this, but perhaps we didn’t realise how damaging we were being to our careers and success in business and in life. I for one was secretly crippled by imposter syndrome and the deep dark thought that I wasn’t good enough to be taken seriously in business!  (I thought I was the only one.)

On that day things changed for me, and it all started with me plucking up the courage to ask a question. (Note, I was the only woman to ask a question and I nearly soiled myself!) During the Q&A the professor encouraged women to put their hands up to ask a question. So, heart rate pumping, I took a deep breath (good tip: breathe) and stood up to ask my question….

“Can you give us some practical advice” I dared to ask in front of 500 plus eager ‘Chimp Paradox’ Fans…

And at that point, to my surprise, the professor looked at me, smiled, paused, (spot the excellent speaking technique there) sighed, and went on to take up the rest of the Q&A time with my question (woo hoo, it must have hit a nerve). What he said next changed my life and may inspire you and the women in your life too…

“Women are terrible…. you keep beating yourself up.  You never think you’re good enough when you are brilliant” (Prof Steve Peters)

He had a point. Having worked in Broadcasting for over 20 years I had never really noticed the female head count when it came to senior roles. I was focused ‘on air’ and there were plenty of strong female voices at the BBC.  I launched Vanessa Feltz’s radio show back in 2002 and at the time there were quite a few ‘loud and proud’ women in the media. But what about in business and in the boardroom?  I didn’t realized how profound the lack of women was.

In my experience, since leaving the glam and glitzy world of TV and radio to help people present and pitch to clients in business (Deloitte, HSBC, Barclays, Societe Generale, and Global law firms like A&O and Squire Patton Boggs Llp) I have realized a shocking truth: WOMEN don’t like to step into the spotlight.  

 I used to avoid it like the plague!

 Many women avoid it and point blank refuse to put themselves through the ordeal of public (speaking) humiliation. Hearing these words of Dr Steve Peters inspired me to help myself and other women to overcome our inner chimps and stop holding ourselves back. Here’s what Dr Steve Peters told me at the School of Life Lecture. I’ve put this into practice….so please do share this with women in your life both professionally and personally….

“Become your biggest fan….. be your own cheer leader….stop blaming yourself for everything….give yourself a big hug, start loving yourself… yes love yourself” (Dr Steve Peters)

 After he told me that in front of the 500 strong crowd he paused and grinned……then continued…

 “Ha ha….there….see… now you know what it’s like to be man”. 

The whole auditorium at the Emmanuel Centre in Victoria in London roared with laugter, clapped and cheered. Hilarious!

After the lecture people came up to me to congratulate me on the best question in the Q&A.  I blushed and almost started being too humble (the usual default position, oh little old me). But something happened that day.  I decided to take Dr Steve Peters’ advice. I gave it a go, I started liking, I mean loving myself a little bit more (I found it really hard) and giving myself credit.

My business transformed as a result.  No longer did I default to NOT GOOD ENOUGH.  No longer did I shy away from the spotlight.  I started speaking in public more and now – I speak at conferences all over the world.

I’ve learnt to work with my strengths and I’ve learnt to love it and do you know what?  YOU can too.

So my dare for you today is to do this yourself and tell as many women as possible to …..

  • Get into the spotlight
  • Start loving yourself
  • DO be bold
  • DO be your own biggest fan
  • STOP giving yourself a hard time

Oh yes – and start enjoying your success!

If you want a massive Inner Confidence Boost email me right now saying ‘Confidence boost please Esther” and I’ll send you the link to my fantastic “How to Boost Your Inner Confidence” Webinar on July 17th – it’s a steal at just £27 per seat (worth thousands if it were a live show).

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We are delighted that Esther Stanhope will be speaking once again at The Ask Abbie Show on:  How to Influence Big Egos – and Step Into A Leadership Role.

The Ask Abbie Show.  Friday 12th October at Amba Hotel, Charing Cross.